Humdrum

It has been one hectic week after ICT. With the exception of the last two days of the week, where I had to leave early for lessons, it was pretty much 12 hour days everyday. We have a "ticket-count" going on daily as a rough gauge of performance, and lately, I've been "slipping down the charts". That's actually one reason why my latest module, centered on organisational behavior, really strikes a chord with my current predicament, especially when it came to the part about managers and work satisfaction. Words like "indifference", "dissonance" as well as "burnout" were especially relevant, though not entirely accurate.

As for why my "count is slipping", I think I am gradually getting bored with all the daily nuances I have to deal with. One question always seems to linger in my head. "THIS is what I'm getting paid for?" No doubt, I think I'm getting good money, but to be honest, I think I'm overpaid for what I do. I guess this may seem to be a somewhat strange area to be complaining about, but one hidden connotation of that is that I could be doing something that's more meaningful and gives me much more value. I want to feel proud to be paid to do work that generates value, both to me and the people around me. Sadly, this is just not happening where I am now.

I had the chance to talk to another colleague of mine when we were still in the office around 9pm one particular evening last week and he mentioned the exact same thing. If it weren't for the money, he would have left ages ago. Providing for both the family as well as housing doesn't make his decision easier. He was at a point in life where he could not afford any uncertainties that would throw his routine off-whack. That was when I told him that I'll put up with this for another year,at most. That's the limit of my threshold. At some point, I've got to bite the bullet and take the plunge. At least learning something new won't be as painful now when I've got no kids to feed.