ANOTHER bad week??

It was yet another hellweek for me last week. This was made worse by a mistake I made in the middle of this tortuous period. I was negligent in a certain task, and while there were no direct impact, I still feel pretty rotten deep down, knowing that I've screwed up. I would like to blame it on the workload, but I know that's not why. Come to think of it, ever since I've been back from my incamp training, I've been working 12 hour days. The sad thing is all these are just invisible hours. No one knows I'm working, and no one certainly cares that I am. Sometimes I really wonder whether its worthwhile to care too much. I know some colleagues of mine never seem to have that problem.

Anyway, today being Sunday means that the start of another week is looming. And if the signs are any indication, I can expect the same levels of stress to come right at me from day one. I've been wondering for a long time how long can I put up with this crap. Its just too unfortunate that I haven't found any other ground to venture.

On a totally unrelated topic, a colleague of mine, who I had known for quite a while since I joined is leaving the firm for a rival company near Vivocity. While I was sad to see him go, I guess it should be a better place that he's going to. Another colleague of mine is thinking of leaving as well. She told me that she's still undecided and not to be surprised if I don't see her after 3 months. Its interesting to note that there are lots of people having the same thoughts as me while not having to deal with crap like me. But then again, they most probably have their own crap to contend with, though those are crap that I would most gladly trade with. Oh well, time to go to sleep and brace myself for another excruciating week ahead.