Still the same.

It has really been a long time. Never really felt like making any entries. Life just wasn't turning out as well as I would have hoped. Its a Saturday evening and I don't really have anything to do. Well, I have assignments pending, but its this lethargic vibe in me thats preventing me from getting started on anything not vaguely entertaining. I had lunch with one of my older colleagues in a different team recently and there are stuff she said that made sense, however unpleasant they were to hear. Bottom line of the conversation was, if you want to have a change, people have got to see your commitment to it. Talk is cheap. Effort and results speak louder of intentions than mere words can convey. Of course, she wasn't critical of me specifically, but I can feel this is one area that I am lacking. Basically, I'm all talk and no action. I've got to work on that.

Recently, the company heralded the arrival of a new batch of graduate hires. There's a few near me and I can see the excitement and anticipation in their faces, all basking in the glory of a potentially fulfilling career. I remember I was a new bird once. I was optimistic. People seems to label us "high flyers" and "fast-tracked". Well, look at where I am now. My peers aren't faring much better too, unfortunately. Hopefully things will change for my new colleagues. I've heard our firm's graduate programs are a lot more structured now, as compared to my day. I can only hope thats true, for their sakes.

In any case, half the year has come and gone. Not much change to the status quo. Still single, and job's still the same. Not much development either way. Not much change in my social life either, with work taking up more or less the whole bulk of my available time. I did remember talking about getting back into bowling again, although that never materialized, due in part, to a lack of partners, but more importantly, a lack of effort. Well, I guess I might never get started, the way things are going. Time will tell.

Anyway, the new iphone is launching soon. I'll probably be getting it, although not anytime soon, since I'm only interested in the white one and it seems that it'll get delayed.  Well, lets hope it doesn't get delayed too much. That's about the few things in my bleak life that I'm looking forward to these days.